moving soon

i seem to have a fruit fly with me wherever i go these days. perhaps as a thank-you for the growing composting heap i have built outside, or as a tiny guardian. i've never been able to get a good look at it.

i've started packing, but i'm going about it all very slowly. my mother's advice was to label all the boxes and make a corresponding list to the contents of each box. while it is a brilliant idea, it is just complicated enough to prevent me from wrapping myself around initiating a full-scale packing project. gradually, i have donated items to the thrift store down the street, and decided which things i can leave behind. i've transplanted plants into their temporary homes so they can stay with babysitters for the summer. i've sorted through some books and some dishes i hardly use, and packed knick knacks and wall hangings and such. but there is still so much stuff! it's a big, intimidating task, and i am just so not thrilled to have to do it.

on the other hand, i'm anxious about leaving here without a dime to my name and making zilch for the next three months. and then moving to phoenix, even temporarily. i haven't lived there in four and a half years. i have forgotten large portions of the street grid, the commercial real estate in our neighborhood is completely different (my parents are across the street from a very old mall). the new Super Target and Light Rail train and massive expanse of developments in every cardinal direction, they're over 4 million people! ghastly! it makes tucson feel very quaint and quiet by comparison. i believe i prefer it that way.

then there's the idea that i'll be sleeping in a tent for most of the summer. i'll listen to owls and crickets and the sound of my colleague sleeping. i'll have to cope with pooping in the woods, every day for days on end. i'll breathe fresh air more often than not, and see wildlife more often than people (i hope).

and i'm ready for that. i'm ready to walk for miles every day, through aspen groves and meadows of wildflowers.

i can only make guesses about what it will look like, but my imagination and google images has conjured up these:


















































so those are my guesses. i haven't gotten any information yet on which points we'll be at, and i'm assuming it's because my ph.d. student is very busy preparing for his summer of research (but it couldn't hurt to let me in on where the heck he's gonna need to go and in what order, better yet where he'll be in two weeks when i'm headed out to meet him).

i've decided it's going to be a blast, though. i'm just itching to get through with all of this moving and heartache at home, it's really wearing me down. it'll be great to get some momentum...soon.

oh i get so aimless when i write blogs just before bed!