because

you know, because I was happy. I felt really high on life. I get so high that I fall really hard. And now it hurts.

Screw this.

up in the attic, it sleeps in the dust

Spring seemed to come in short, irregular spurts, and the weather hasn't fully decided to warm up or stay cool enough to necessitate a sweater or long sleeves. Frankly, I've had enough cold weather, and I'm drumming my fingers irritably at having to layer up every day, especially in early May.

I can count a few accomplishments since I last updated. Namely, I shook my damn self awake. Financially, I shaved down my debt to a nice round 8 grand. How about that?! I finished several pieces of a total of 10 separate items for upcoming dancing gigs. I've lost some weight...3 kilos! That's progress because I was hanging out at the same weight forever and it was really discouraging. I discovered a boy I really liked and I basically pounced on the opportunity and made a successful catch! Obviously it won't last because I'm in Temporary Mode and I couldn't keep him on a long-distance basis...so that means right now I have nothing to lose in just liking him tons! Life in the moment!

I've also taken the time to send off a letter or two of interest about jobs I could see myself doing, and I've located some potential graduate programs abroad. The idea of how I'd be paying for those things hasn't completely settled in, so we'll see.